Malady

It's cold in the room tonight
So cold with no hint of light
The curse of a broken thought
Appears to be finally brought
I'm giving in bit by bit
I learned I am used to it
And after ideals demise
Never at all surprised

It drives me to inner wars
It drives me to streams of words
A drop in an endless sea
The stirring of what must be
But after the final bout
It's fine when the fire's out
But answers I do not know
What to do
Where to go

Wait until blue drops fall
Wait and regain control
And finally am I alive?
And finally the lights arrive
Wait for the good to leave
Wait like a coward thief
And how I must flee this long
It's wrong, it's wrong, it's wrong

If only there was a way
If only I found a trace
I'd grovel out of the pit
I'd connect the parts that split
The difference between it all
The top and the deepest hole
Is larger than it had proved
It's funny how nothing moved

Wait until there's no threat
Wait 'till you can forget
Starting the time called peace
I'm free as I got release
Free so the dream is past
Free so the care won't last
And how I'm loath to belong
It's wrong, it's wrong, it's wrong...